God is faithful– even when world is shaking
God has so deeply rocked me to the core with this. That my Jesus is the same.. yesterday.. today. and forever. He does NOT change.. even when my world is shaking. He is my forever rock. He is your forever rock. He is not suprised, caught off guard, forgetful, HE is the same.. yesterday.. today.. forever..
Hebrews 13:8
Yesterday He loved me.
Yesterday He loved you.
Today.. He loved me.
Today He loves you
And tomorow.. and forever.
See my world has shaken this week.. shaken so deeply not sure my feet feel the ground yet. But God so lovingly had prepared me for this without even realizing. For the past several weeks He’s been teaching me about His sovereignty.. His goodness in midst of trials. and the biggest theme: That He is in ALL the details of our lives. I have taught some really powerful Bible studies on these things in the past few weeks. What I didn’t know is God was lovingly preparing me for what was the nightmare of my yesterday.. for how He would be with me today– and How He is same tomorow.
Yesterday got a phone call at 10 am. The one you never want to hear. Jenn we called an ambulance. Dad cannot breathe, to weak to move. they are on their way. But God, I am a daddy’s girl. I love my daddy more then words can express, God we cannot go through this again…
heart stopped.. spoon in my oatmeal dropped
phone dropped..
Left and immediately went to hospital.
I was two blocks away.. God’s in the details!
Was able to meet the amublance there.. be the first face my Dad saw as they unloaded him from stretcher. That is the worst thing you can see..
them take your dad off into the unknown…
But Jesus was there.. He was the same. He was the same God that I had praised that morning in my quiet time in my coffee when world was stable.. and He was my rock.
In this shaking.. He still rock…
Mom arrives..
sis arrives..
Then waiting. lots and lots of waiting.. then find out there is a huge blood clot in both your dad’s lungs .. docs say very life threatening.. very touch and go.. hours of unknown.
But God…
But God knew..
even when top docs don’t.. God is there.. God carries.. God sends His love through body of Christ.
This begin our nightmare/glory story of our God who NEVER let’s go.. never.. ever.. never..
Dad transferred to ICU.. lots of big scary words and diagnosis thrown around.. top notch docs all confused..
But God..
God is not confused.
or surprised..
His love has not changed.. for me.. for my dad.. for my mom.. for you..
at 12:28 at nigh tonight t as I cannot sleep becuz just want to pray for Dad.. His love here with me..
In the midst of this nightmare God sending someone to hug your neck, or that certain nurse you know has the spirit of Jesus, or that phone call or that text, or that prayer
That beautiful body of Christ.
In the midst of the nightmare friends bringing coffee, toilet paper (haha.. we were out at my house.. ran out that morning.. wasn’t expecting mom to have to spend night with me that night.. didn’t get home from hospital till midnight.. haha.. that night we had to use coffee filters haha), friends being hands and feet of Jesus
Cause Jesus’s hands never leave me.
And i want to proclaim that.
I proclaimed that kissing my dad goodbye in the ICU these past two nights not knowing what tomorrow holds.
No I am not perfect or put together, i feel deeply and painfully this process
But I can say I am held together
Held by the one who holds the universe in the palm of His hand.
Our tomorrow literally holds some very scary things. A risky bone marrow biopsy on dad in morning– the reasons for that biopsy not good.. a journey that probably will not be an easy one.. just like my dad’s bladder cancer 1 year ago–
but a miracle journey
Cuz our God is greater, my God is stronger..
He holds me, held me
Yesterday.. today, and tomorrow.
We need a miracle. Would you join me in praying that.
But you know what I am deeply seeing .. the greater need.. Jesus… He created it that way. And He is faithful even when the world is shaking.
I don’t know how your world is shaking.. but tonight I am praying in the middle of the night.. in the midst of the greatest uncertainties that you have the gift of knowing one thing that never changes.
His love!
Psalms 18:2 the Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my (and my families ) deliverer. He is my shield and stronghold, my salvation
Isaiah 26:3 He will keep in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on THEE!
You are COURAGEOUS. Thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Wisdom for the doctors and a miracle for your father.
Amazing !! You are an inspiration Jenn. Thank you for sharing your journey during this time. It is so hard to watch our dads go through something like this. Praying you do feel our heavenly. Fathers arms holding you tight tonight ,tomorrow and in the days to come .
Jenn, this is so beautifully written I have tears in my eyes! Your description of the last couple of days gave me pause…but then your description of the faithfulness of God brought tears to my eyes.
But God…
My two favorite words in the Bible….and to see you use those words in the midst of this scary time gives me a reason to shout Hallelujah!
But God….Glory!!
Isaiah 25:1 God showed me these words this morning. Praying the comfort you in some way.
A breathless read.
It's knowing and leaning on and into God's sovereignty that's held me through so very much. I don't know how folks walk through fire without Him.
Praying. Right now.
Such a beautiful, transparent post. My friend, I love you, am praying, and will continue. May you feel His Love like you never have before. (((hugs)))
You are so right, God has been preparing you for this journey. Isn't He just amazing? Lean on Him. He did much the same for me with my father. (((hugs))) to you, sweet friend.
The realization that nothing changes His love for us brings such peace even in the midst of the unknown. Thank you for so beautifully sharing how He spoke to your heart. I pray you continue to feel His love, peace and comfort.
I enjoyed this post and connected with you from (in) inked group on FB. I have been in that same situation more than once with my in-laws. It is scary but thankfully, God is always there. Glad to have found your blog. I hope you will check out mine.
I am a daddy's girl too. Praying for your day, you, and your family through this. Bless you!