Journal entry from October 14, 2008
It was a late night green tea worship time in my very cold nepalee home. It was freezing cold.. i could see my breath already. I had been living in nepal for 1 and 1/2 years.. and I could not sleep. I remember Jesus offering me to invitation to come to the kitchen table and hangout with Him. And He spoke to me as I journaled. I dont know why but I strongly felt God tell me someone in the bloggy world needed to read those pages. So here goes.. straight from the pages of my journal.
Jenn I have taken notice of you. I have personally arranged all the details of your life, I have touched your heart, I have romanced you. I am your sustainer, your joy giver, I have given you my presence, I speak through my word to you. I am your healer, your provider, your best friend. I am the one who holds you when your heart physically aches for home. I am your safety, I am the shield about you, the glory and the lifter of your head. I am your promise maker and your promise keeper, your prince of peace, your restorer, the one who calls you beautiful, the restorer of your soul, the one who always picks up the broken pieces and waves something beautiful. I am your weaver, your guide, your physical protection, I am your confidence giver! I have pushed you lovingly out of your comfort zone into places unknown. I am your mouthpiece, your language giver, your door opener and door closer. i am your knight in shining armor, truth giver, and life sustainer, true giver and lie fighter, the faithful one, patient, full of lovingkindness, team builder, support giver, financial provider, life changer, heart shaper, mountain climber, financial provider, cheerleader, forgiver, chain breaker, healer healer healer, the one who has called you to dance, the one who has called you to believe big even when your faith is small. I am the one who holds you on your loneliest nights, when you feel alone, scared.. I whisper you are beautiful when Satan says otherwise. I have taught you to praise in the storm. I am the stretcher, molder, potter, I am the artist making you into a work of art. I am the chain breaker. I am the God who brings you on the journey. I am the real plan maker. I am the one who holds you when you cannot hold yourself together, I help you love when you have no love in you, I have taken off your masks and given you the freedom found in transparency. I have given you the incredible freedom to just BE….
This is part I of the journal entry God
gave me that precious night
at the cold kitchen table
on the other side of the world
please let me know how God spoke to your heart through it!