wallpapering with truth

I woke up this mornign and realized that I needed to write a blog.. and well I just felt like writing about what was currently on my heart and sharing that with you. You know.. satan knows how to get us. He loves to get us with his lies… and he knows that so often if he throws them at us enough that we will slip and fall into his pit of either dispair, doubt, discouragement, depression, addiction to things other then God (such as yummy food or people’s approval). As Beth Moore says once he gets us in there he wants us to make ourselves at home in the pit.. the put up pretty decorations, wallpaper the pit with his lies and well just settle in there. I don’t know about you but I do not want to be a pit dweller of any kind.
It’s indescribable the spiritual warfare that goes on here.. so sometimes you just get weary and it seems easier to dwell in the pit then to wield the seemingly heavy weapon of truth and fight back. But I love how Psalms 18 pictures my knight and shining armor– He rescues me because he delights in me. so he will even hold that weapon of truth and fight.
so did I just watch to many knightly movies.. why am I telling you this. I am just going to be honest.. I sure do have my homesick moments here. And that’s when Satan takes his lies and wnats to throw me into a pit. I start to miss home and then I hear satan say– well what good do you think you are doing there anyway.. why did God send you there.. you cannot even communicate well with the people…why would even think he would use you.. .. people back home will forget about you ect.. if I listen to one lie then they just keep escalating and pretty soon I could find myself in a pit… but I AM NOT willing to settle as a pit dweller. Better is one day in our Fathers courts then thousands elsewhere. Lately I am learning to really wallpaper my heart with the truth of things like Ephesians 2:20 that I am God’s workmanship created in christ JEsus to do good works which he prepared for me in advance… or things like Psalms 139 even if you dwell on the far side of the sea even there MY hand will guide you. When I start to have those times when satan lies seem so loud I am even taking my art set that shawna sent me and drawing out bible verses and places them in my new “wallpaper albumn of truth”. God’s word is alive and active and I am going to believe him.
So if you find yourself in a pit of any kind today.. either the small one of a little discouragement, or a big one of depression or an addiction to something like food or approval then look at the wallpaper on your heart and take the plaster and plaster up some truth.
it doesn’t make me miss home anymore.. but it does keep me out of the pit!!

one more thought.. I think I started realilzing i was having a homesick moment when I was trying to talk to my sister and we have not been able to talk and we were on skype and i could hear her voice clearly and she could not hear me and it was a onesided conversation and it was frustrating because I just wanted us to be able to talk and share our hearts. Then that night the Lord spoke to me and said.. Jenn this happens all the time between you and me. I just want us to be able to talk.. to share our hearts. But so many times it becomes a one sided conversation instead of a conversation we would have if we were sitting together at starbucks over coffee.
And I know that it was frustrating to my lovely sis michelle because she was not sure if I could hear her or not.. I wonder if God feels that way sometimes.. can she hear me.. ??

Just some random thoughts.

Things here are going really well. It’s been a busy week. We have a different nepalee family coming over to our house every night this week. Last night a family came and we had such a good time. we made them their first american food ever.. american breakfast (mommy I pulled a you.. i didn’t want to go to the grocery store so I just creative with what we had in our house.. you know how good you are at that) One of the girls that came used a flush toilet for the first time in her life.!! we did have a great time.